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today, i found out that frenz who read my story was concerned about my past…i appreciate that u guys care, but DO NOT PITY ME.

There are people out there who have worse experience than me.

i juz wanna share my story wif pp who might hafta the same experience as me…i wan to let them noe tt they’re not alone. they dun hafta hide anything. they dun hafta be ashame of their past.

having a bad past doesn’t give u an excuse to be a bad person…

having a bad past doesn’t give an excuse to blame anyone, including yrself…

having a bad past doesn’t give u an excuse to manipulate others and den blame it on yr "bad past"…

i came from a broken family, my parents divorced when i was 3.

i had to leave my mom, away to s’pore at the age of 4, where i was abused.

i’ve experienced the worst frenship, frenz who manipulated, frenz who backstabbed, frenz who took me for granted, frenz who criticised juz to hurt me…

At home, my sister makes me suffer a living hell…she’s bad-tempered, she’s spoilt, she’s mean, she’s violent…

i’m a veri patient and tolerant person, i think i muz thank my sister for it becuz she’s like my patience mentor. but, i believe i’ll die of high blood pressure or heart attack one day…

i experienced the worst, not even my closest family or frenz noe it…

they remain my darkest secret…

onli GOD noes…and i noes GOD feels for me…

i do not blame anyone for this is my life.

this is who i am…

i’m juz glad that my past is not haunting me…i’m glad that i moved on…

i do not live in my past, i live WITH my past…they’re part of me, they gimme my identity, they’re my strength, they’re my weakness…

they remind me to be strong, they remind me of my vulnerability…

i admit i used to pity myself…drowning in my own sorrow…i’ll cry whenever i think of my past, because i dun understand why it muz happen to me…

but i realised that i’m being silly…i’m being stupid…

who says u hafta let go of yr past?

embrace them!

embrace them with LOVE!!

embrace them with forgiveness!!

no one, including myself, deserve any of these…but i see it as a gift from GOD…

this is the life he gave me…

eunff said…

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