Gonna Burst Anytime….
My stomach is aching, i need to shit badly, but i cant….
WARNING:FOR THOSE WHO CANT TAKE VULGARITIES, DUN READ!
If i dun write down my emotions soon, i’ll burst and die like a moose! i’m feeling so empty…maybe its PMS, maybe its myself, or maybe its Aron! i dunno…these days,i’m like a walking zombie! i have lovely family and frenz, i have everything i need, but i’m not statisfied!! i dunno wat to do wif my life…i’m not living my life to the fullest…life is quite meaningless sometimes…
i’m trying to bring out my serious side, i’m trying to prove to pp tt i’m not a happy-go-lucky person…but i’m not fucking happy! i’m not happy! i’m not happy! maybe being serious is juz not me…maybe i cant be serious…maybe i should live and die a happy person! but how can i tell people around me to STOP TAKING ME AS A FUCKING JOKE?!?!
fuck the hell outta me! i’m fucking pissed wif myself…i’m exhausted…i dun feel like shitting anymore…i miss my dear,but its sad that we cant spend time together. i noe the frenship is starting to drift, i juz hafta accept it!
DEAR,i juz wanna let u noe tt i’ll love u alwayz. no matter how far apart we are, my heart and soul will always be there for u…i promise i’ll go back this dec, if i dun, u come over la! hehe…
The mouse pad beside the comp reads "Serious finds fun".haha…i wonder if its true? phew…i’m feeling better. i noe this problem will come to me again until my fucking emptiness is filled…but for now, who cares?
aron’s back to his uncle’s place,his uncle is diagnosed with cancer…he’s gonna go soon…it’s so depressing.my uncle is also diagnosed with cancer, he left us last sunday night, around 8pm..life is so fragile. i believe they’ll live forever in heaven. i wonder when is my turn…
