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last nite, i was breeze watching porns. some guy beside me opened the short clips in a comp.

There was a sudden silence, den heavy breathing, followed by vigorous movements…

r u thinking wat i’m thinking? Dun think dirty ah.

when i first watch it, i felt disgusted.not horny, not excited, but DISGUSTED…its no surprise to me becuz i once cried juz by looking at porn sites.

But i alwayz wonder wat made these people perform such personal and private actions in front of the camera?

Izzit for money? Izzit for fame? Izzit for fun?

Did someone force them? Did someone threaten them?

Where’s their integrity?

i believe everyone has at least a glow of integrity in them…

u can be a beggar, u can be a loser, but u can never be a person with no integrity…

U can lose yr integrity due to some reasons,

but after the kicks and the punches, U will eventuallie stand up for yr rights.

why? because we’re human beings! because we have our limits, we have our rights and most imortantly, We Have Integrity!

so, start treating yrself and those around u wif respect!

enuff said…   

I feel like puking…my tummy is bloated…damn!i shldn’t have eaten the whole plate of rice.

aron’s The Lost Sheep. actuallie, i think he’s juz desperate bird. noe why?

u see, when u’re developing a crush on someone, u cant take yr mind off that person! u’ll think of her when u eat, when u sleep, when u shit, and especially when u masturbate…And when u realise u’re starting to lose yourself, u try to take control. But sadly, the stubborn mind will never obey no matter wat. The more u try to do content regulation, u more u’ll think of her…Then, u’ll develop PMS:Persistent Mood Swing. one moment u’re smiling to every single person u see, two moment u’ll beat up every idiot u see…

people might think u’re a googoo, but i juz think u’re a desperate bird. why a bird? ask yourself…

Why izzit that when u’re single, available, and desperate, No one comes to u?

Why izzit that when u’re double, used, and satisfied, Every one comes to u?

Enuff Said…

My stomach is aching, i need to shit badly, but i cant….

WARNING:FOR THOSE WHO CANT TAKE VULGARITIES, DUN READ!

If i dun write down my emotions soon, i’ll burst and die like a moose! i’m feeling so empty…maybe its PMS, maybe its myself, or maybe its Aron! i dunno…these days,i’m like a walking zombie! i have lovely family and frenz, i have everything i need, but i’m not statisfied!! i dunno wat to do wif my life…i’m not living my life to the fullest…life is quite meaningless sometimes…

i’m trying to bring out my serious side, i’m trying to prove to pp tt i’m not a happy-go-lucky person…but i’m not fucking happy! i’m not happy! i’m not happy! maybe being serious is juz not me…maybe i cant be serious…maybe i should live and die a happy person! but how can i tell people around me to STOP TAKING ME AS A FUCKING JOKE?!?!

fuck the hell outta me! i’m fucking pissed wif myself…i’m exhausted…i dun feel like shitting anymore…i miss my dear,but its sad that we cant spend time together. i noe the frenship is starting to drift, i juz hafta accept it!

DEAR,i juz wanna let u noe tt i’ll love u alwayz. no matter how far apart we are, my heart and soul will always be there for u…i promise i’ll go back this dec, if i dun, u come over la! hehe…

The mouse pad beside the comp reads "Serious finds fun".haha…i wonder if its true? phew…i’m feeling better. i noe this problem will come to me again until my fucking emptiness is filled…but for now, who cares?

aron’s back to his uncle’s place,his uncle is diagnosed with cancer…he’s gonna go soon…it’s so depressing.my uncle is also diagnosed with cancer, he left us last sunday night, around 8pm..life is so fragile. i believe they’ll live forever in heaven. i wonder when is my turn…