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nuff said.

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Damn i hate my neck. That piercing tingling burning pain is gettin on my nerves…Blame it on stress.

Chinese new year…

Is when my skin becomes thick but My lips becomes sweet.

My hand gets itchy. My mouth always full. And my toilet full of shit.

Last week

Grief. fear. tears.

I have one fear. The one and only fear. The biggest and greatest fear.

Death.

Not mine. Not at all.

My loved ones.

My life ends then. My soul vanishes then. My heart stops then.

Only my body. It will be empty. it will be hollow.

I can only pray hard. Trust God. Have faith in God.

Beg him to take my life instead. To take me with him.

Selfish, I am…

I pray that God takes good care of my friends, I know they’re safe in his kingdom.

Death…might not be my fear, when God is around.

nuff said.   

Life can be complicating. Life can be simple.

It all depends on how we choose to live our lives.

We spike We strife

We damn We blame

We cry We bleed

Life can be so nasty. Life can be so cruel.

we Accuse Life, we Damn Life, we Blame Life 

But Who live Life? Who possess Life? Who sustain Life?

Failures, Obstacles, Crisis, Destruction

CREATES

Success, Answers, Peace, Triumph

We cannot experience One without Another.

We are Sad because we were once Happy.

I went through some of the most horrible phrase in my life

Fussing, Cursing, Crying, Bleeding…

But I wipe my tear, to take a closer look at Life.

Thinking. Reviving.

Life is simple. We are complicating.

I live Life. I possess Life. I sustain Life.

I am Sad because I was once Happy.

The Sun wil Shine after the Storm.

And I am learning to love the Storm in my Life.

nuff said.   

Yesterday,family meant love and respect.

Today, i realise that family can mean something else.

Something disgusting. Something ferocious. Something despicable.

I’m talking about my family. No, they’re not part of my family anymore.

Yesterday, i saw them as brothers and friends.

Today, i see them as demons and beasts.

Yesterday, i loved them.

Today, i despise them.

No, in fact, i take my hats off them!

The evil things they did to their family is overwhelming…wow! I must say!

U guys prove to me that evil people do exist in this world!

And they can be none other than your closest kins!

I tried to find excuses for U, i tried to convince myself that U are manipulated, I tried to tell myself that U will turn over a new leaf…

How silly of Me. How naive of Me. How stupid of Me.

Everything happens for A Reason.

I pray hard. I pray that none of these happened.

But now i see the light….

I believe everything happens for A Reason.

I believe this is a Blessing in disguise.

God has a Bigger plan. God has a Better plan.

U can spike, U can blackmail, U can threaten.

But if u ever hurt my parents, I swear I’ll make u pay for it.

I hope u’ll never return.

I hope you’ll get retribution.

I hope your soul burns in hell.

But I must thank you for crushing my foolish hope that U will turn over a new leaf and we can be a family again.

Because I sever ties with U.

U’re right, We can NEVER be a family.

nuff said.

A bartender is sitting behind the bar on a typical day, when the door bursts open and in come four exuberant blondes. They come up to the bar, order five bottles of champagne and ten glasses, take their order and sit down at a large table. The corks are popped, the glasses are filled and they begin toasting and chanting, "51 days, 51 days, 51 days!" Soon, three more blondes arrive, take up their drinks and the chanting grows. "51 days, 51 days, 51 days!"

A blonde then comes in with a picture under her arm. She walks over to the table, sets the picture in the middle and the table erupts even more loudly in chant. Up jump the others, they begin dancing around the table, exchanging high-fives, all the while chanting "51 days, 51 days, 51 days!"

The bartender can’t contain his curiosity any longer, so he walks over to the table. There in the center is a beautifully framed child’s puzzle of the Cookie Monster.

When the frenzy dies down a little bit, the bartender asks one of the blondes, "What’s all the chanting and celebration about?" The blonde who brought in the picture pipes in,

"Everyone thinks that blondes are dumb and they make fun of us. So, we decided to set the record straight. Ten of us got together, bought that puzzle and put it together. The side of the box said 2-4 years, but we put it together in just 51 days!"

courtesy of My sister’s jokes

Still unable to accept. Still unable to believe. How life can change so much, how life can get out of control. How i wish it never happened. How i wish it was back to normal. Sometimes i dislike them, sometimes i miss them. Sometimes i’ll scold myself for missing them, sometimes i just let myself forgive them. Sometimes i blame them, sometimes i blame life.

My head aches,but my heart aches even more…Who would see this coming? Who would believe it really happened? But it did. It really did. Smacking right in my face. Still unable to accept. Still unable to believe. So helpless, so restless…Cant live a day w/o thinking and worrying about the final conclusion. what will happen? Cant wait for the horrible process to be over.

And perhaps life will be back to normal…

nuff said.

i’m puzzled. where do badass come from? i mean the ones in johor. seriously, since when johor became a state of badass? did they form some kinda badass association in johor? and they keep falling back on crimes alreadi done dead, like snatch thieving. hello? snatch theiving is so outdated! and wats with the terror riding thing? notting better to do than wasting petrol and contributing to global warming izit? oh! and there’s the recent trend of gang raping. i’m always curious, why do badass like to rape their female victims? its discriminating, wat abt the male victims? oh, i think they prefer slashing them wif parangs. how much does a parang cost? i bet the demand for parangs is veri high-for slashing and er…more slashing? perhaps everyone in johor carries a parang in the pants. i kinda pity pp living a johor, they’ve become veri paranoid. my aunt was once robbed in johor, and aft tt incident, she was on red alert. once, she suspected tt a car was ‘following’ her but that road has onli one lane! haha..funny but sad. badass in johor shld get a life. spare those poor johorians! come to selangor instead! ok.i’m kidding.

nuff said.

So stupid. So useless. I cried. So silly. Thinking back. So funny. Thinking back. It hurts. Thinking back. It bleeds. I can’t stop. So helpless. I can’t breathe. So desperate. What can I do. To stop the pain. What can I do. To stop the tears. Smiling to myself. Mocking at myself. So stupid. So useless. So silly. I can’t think. I can’t breathe. I think my heart lost its beat. I think my body lost its soul. So stupid. So useless. So silly. This is not the end. Its forever. This will not end. Its not the worst. Stones will break my flesh and bones. But words will break my heart and soul.

nuff said

i’m blogging for the sake of blogging. How dumb can i be? feel like shitting cuz cant stop farting. feel like puking but cant stop eating. yes, its tt time of the month when gals r gals and guys r guys. The craving and desire to stuff sugar down my throat is taking over my diet plan to maintain my current weight. erk….now, i’ve to start gyming to shed those man-made pounds and wait patiently for the next ‘amazing moment’. Its never gonna end isnt it? gals will always be gals. if i were to be a guy for a day, wat will i do? hmm…well…first, i muz hav a hot body tt comes wif toned biceps, 6packs and a cute ass! o0o0o…den i muz have a hunky face tt comes wif piercing brown eyes, defined nose and sexy lips! OK! lastly, i’ll do a dirrrrrrrrrrrty strip dance in a gay bar! wooohooo! yeah baby! oh and of course i muz spend the nite wif a cute guy…

seriously, i need to shit…

nuff said.

hello ms neckache! we meet again! i juz loveeeeeeeeeee your company. *roll eyes to the back of my head* since u’re always givin me an amazing sensation on my neck, i’ll return the flavor today. U muz definitely try my new invented massage. It helps to regulate blood flow and makes u sweat.  Here are the steps(not in order): pinch-punch-slap-stomp-step-stab-twist-kick-dislocate-slash-choke-slam. Dun worry, i’ll be gentle.